There is Light at the End of the Tunnel by Nancy Nair
When we are in the deepest, blackest place in our lives, it feels like there is no way out.
As we are walking in this lonely place and there seems to be no help, we usually want to cover our heads with a pillow and not look at it. But, if we do that, the grief will be so great that we will feel like we can’t make it another day.
When you are feeling this way, you need to know that the only way you will find help is to go straight to God. Also, you can ask God to help you find a friend who will pray with. It would be nice if your husband would pray with you, but most of the time when I see women in this place is because they don’t have a husband who is there for them. Even though the husband may be in the house, he really isn’t there emotionally, only in bodily form and usually he is busy working, watching television or “whatever”.
When that happens, you almost have to “water you own garden”. (A dear friend gave me this thought) You must read scripture, pray, find a friend who will walk beside you. Make sure this friend will not talk negatively about your husband or about whatever you share with them, but praying that God will work in a special way. I believe when we are praying for a specific thing to happen, God will help us.
Read Psalms 23 for a wonderful encouragement of how God provides: The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He makes me to lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside the still waters. He restores my soul; He leads me in the paths of righteousness for His name’s sake. YEA, THOUGH I WALK THROUGH THE VALLEY OF THE SHADOW OF DEATH, I WILL FEAR NO EVIL; FOR YOU ARE WITH ME; YOUR ROD AND YOUR STAFF, THEY COMFORT ME. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; you anoint my head with oil; my cup runs over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life; and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.